Fic: Posting Update & Ramble: Whys and Wherefores

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Hello all my lovelies! I'm afraid I'm posting today to tell y'all that I won't be posting for a while.  :(  I've been pretty stressed lately and am rapidly approaching something like this, so The Sea After a Storm is officially on hiatus until I have the time to get a nice backlog of chapters. The good news, however, is that when I come back (when, NOT if, I promise) I will have lots of chappies for you. If you're curious about the details…


OK, so here's the sitch: work sucks and it's seeping into every aspect of my life. It started sucking back in October of '08 when my firm did its first round of layoffs. And while there have been ups and downs, lately it's all been down. Currently there are 28 people (of the 70 total) who have been reduced to half time due to a major project going on hold. And while I was lucky enough to stay on at 100% timewise, I still took a 15% paycut. AND I'm working insane hours to make up for the work that can't get done by the people on half-time. So I'm working way more hours for way less pay and basically spending the majority of my time with people who either want to bitch about how much everything sucks or want to defend all the decisions. Either way, I have too much to do to sit around and listen, something that no one seems to get which just drives me batty.

When I finally get home, I've been too tapped to do any writing so I've been trying to squeeze it all in on the weekends and it's just not working. Writing used to be my stress reliever (from work and family and roommate and eating so much I've put back on the 20 pounds I lost last year) but last night I was taking a very late shower after finally doing some much MUCH needed cleaning at my apartment and I realized that I didn't have one word ready to post. And when I started crying I realized that I needed to pull back for a bit. *sigh*

I'm so SOOOO sorry to let y'all down. I hope you'll forgive me and come back when I start posting again. I will finish The Sea After a Storm and I have a sequel to my Christmas AU for teachwriteslash (teaser here). I am NOT leaving! I have one more sin for tw_lucky_7  (after I get it written, LOL) and then I'll just be away for a bit. I have big plans for The Sea After a Storm and I really want to see how my AU ideas pan out. I even worked out a COE fix it (thanks big time to qaffangyrl  and my beloved thrace_adams  for that).

I really just want to give y'all a good story and this is the only way I can figure out how to do that now.

*hugs*
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Comments

[morgia.livejournal.com]

Gnaaaaaaaaaa chérie, take time for you, we all gonna be around for waiting for you. I am not around often, but I always like a look to you.

The most important is to take care of you, nothing else matter.

I just want to hold you and rock you softly.

Je te t'embrasse et te donne de doux câlins,

xxxx

[bookwrm89.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry things have been so stressful for you - that really sucks. **hugs** Like you said, your writing is supposed to be a stress-reliever, when it starts to feel like just one more thing that you have to get done you definitely need to take a step back and relax as much as you can for a while.
Take care of yourself and no worries, we'll be here when you're ready to start posting again. In the meantime, if there's anything I can do - even if it's just a virtual shoulder - I'm here!

[space-monkey52.livejournal.com]

D:

That's horrible. You're a much stronger person then I am. I would have just shut myself up somewhere halfway through that list. There is also NO POSSIBLE WAY YOU COULD LET US DOWN. Anybody else here who thinks otherwise can shove it. Taking care of your stuff should be the most important thing. Any chance of normal journal updates once and a while to let us know how things are going?

[quaintheart.livejournal.com]

Button,

I will miss you. Please take the time to you need get a handle on things. Make time for yourself. Once you feel ready... we will all be waiting for you!

Take Care, QuaintHeart

[teachwriteslash.livejournal.com]

You take all the time you need. We are not going anywhere. I will be waiting patiently PM me though, okay? I think I have some contacts that might be of help in your area ...

Take care love! Huggles!

[bandgeek01.livejournal.com]

*hugs* You are the most important thing. Take care of yourself.

I'm sorry work is sucking so much for you.

If people don't want to stay around, then I'm afraid that's their loss. Good things happen to those that wait, and eventually that will be more fic from you.

[wynkat1313.livejournal.com]

*hugs* hun... take good care of yourself! We'll be here when you have time to check in and when things calm down enough to allow you to actually enjoy writing! :)

[cjharknessgirl.livejournal.com]

Aww, sweetie, I'm so sorry things have been so stressful lately. That's awful. I wish there was something I could do. *hugs tight* You're all that's important, take care of you and we'll be here when you come back. PM me if you need anything okay?

*hugs again*

[unrequited1984.livejournal.com]

button i love you hon and though i'm sad that you'll be on a hiatus :( i will content myself by reading your stuff all over again. :) a happy author is a happy reader, because unlesss you're happy with what you post, it's not worth it. i hope things smooth out for you, and know that we will be here when you're ready to come back!

[alba17.livejournal.com]

That work situation sounds truly awful. I hope it improves somehow. Best of luck de-stressing.

[kehlana-miyu.livejournal.com]

Don't worry about your readers' eaction! I'm sure everyone will be understanding. Fanfic should be all about joy and love for our favourite character, not a chore! I will be very glad to see you posting again, but I happily wait until your work situation gets better. Keep my fingers crossed for you! :)

[choccy-grl.livejournal.com]

Don't be sad, we will all be here waiting for you. (I may finally get caught up with your fic in your hiatus - I'm about three quarters of the way through V Rule but my reading has taken a backseat to my writing I'm afraid.)
I agree, having a build up of chapters does help take the pressure off. This is meant to be for fun and the pressure to post isn't meant to stress you out. I guess you're like me, you want to post regularly but the quality of what you put out there matters. (that makes me sound really big headed - I'm not saying I'm a good writer but what I put out there is the best that I can do and has normally had at least two rewrites to get it that way.) Of course it helps having a great (and quick) beta like thrace doesn't it :)
Take care of yourself.

[reddevilpoes.livejournal.com]

You are not letting us down! We love you and want you well and happy...So get there, be that and we are not let down.!

[moonlitcactus.livejournal.com]

Writing fic is supposed to be fun. When the point comes that it's just an added stress in your life, pulling back a bit is exactly the right thing to do.

We'll be here waiting (with hugs if required) whenever the fic is :D

Hope things improve for you soon x

[idamus.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear your life is so stressful, I hope it gets better and SOON, don't worry about the fics, we'll wait.
Take care *hugs*

[michael-the-car.livejournal.com]

Take all the time you need, everyone has to step back from something at sometime, the knack is to know when you have to. We'll all be waiting patiently for you when things pick up.

Take care of yourself, that's the most important thing right now.

[criccieth.livejournal.com]

hug.

we'll wait for you. with baited breath. but i can sympathise with the life-is-to-busy-and-stressy-to-write thing. hell i've not updated for over a year :-(

[cen-sceal.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry to hear you're so stressed at work, I know how badly that sort of situation just seems to manage to completely eat away at your own time. I really hope it improves. Don't worry bout the fic, keeping yourself sane
and happy is so much more important.

*sends hugs & hotchocolate*

Wants to give wrong kind of help.

[teamrodent.livejournal.com]

((buttononthetop))

::Wants to go over and kick her work's butt.::

[tygerc.livejournal.com]

No worries, you're so awesome that we'll all wait happily.

[sitech1.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear work is so horrendous at the moment. Please don't feel like you're letting us down. I might sometimes say that I can't wait till the next chapter, but I'm quite patient really. Best wishes xx

[qaffangyrl.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Baby I have so been there. you take all the time you need and if it doesn't happen then it doesn't happen. We'll love you no matter what. (thanks for the shout-out btw)

Oh and you SO need to come play in the Adam Lambert sandbox with me and thrace. At first I was a little squicked by RP fandom BUT Adam SO has "fantasy" stage luvin going on with pretty Tommy that i just consider myself playing with the "stage personas" rather than the actual "people" having said that Adam and Tommy both us encourage to follow people in the their social networks so it's almost that we have an entire CAST of characters to play with in fics. (I swear I like feel I'm a little girl a again I'm playing barbie sometimes)

[ab-n0rmal.livejournal.com]

I understand -- isn't adulthood grand? </sarcasm>

Take care, do what you have to, I can be patient!

[butterflycell.livejournal.com]

*massive hugs* I completely sympathise with your situation and it sounds completely crap =[

Hopefully things will take a turn for the better soon, but in the mean time, don't give the fan fic a second thought! It should be something fun and if it isn't, standing back is perfectly okay! I've had to do it myself over the last few weeks, so I know exactly what your train of thought is.

I will, of course, wait patiently for more 'Sea After A Storm', but if that's months away or if it never happens, that's absolutely fine by me =] fanfic is about you and not stressing out over deadlines or other people's opinions of it! So no more crying about it

*another hug for good luck*

I'll send some good vibes your way =]